Finding Myself

*TRIGGER WARNING*
I *DO NOT* promote self harm, eating disorders or suicide. I'm just venting and writing down my thoughts in a place I can't be judged because no one knows me. I'm a 14 year old girl who gets caught up in the world of make believe. Reading, writing and razor blades are my escape. One time I layed down in the middle of a dark and empty road to look at the stars. I feel lonely almost every single day of my life. My friends make me feel less alone in the world, but I will forever feel lonely, and i’ve now accepted that fact. I hate myself. I need to be punished. Sometimes I get sad for no reason (but everyone has those days). I want to eat less. I skip breakfast and lunch on school days. I'm a worrier and I'm emotional. I'm not as innocent as people think I am and I hate the things i've done. I have a girlfriend (since January 29th, 2015). •••I'm always here to help and talk if you need me. Don't be shy, you won't be bothering me. I promise.•••